Twenty Six

Today I am 26!

This picture was taken yesterday at the ancient Bursa silk market. In it I’m sweaty, shiny, and smelly. I’ve got blisters on my feet, that are bleeding inside my shoes, from walking 10+ miles plus hauling my duffel bag and backpack up hills and stairs. My face has broken out, I have a large amount of bug bites, and I’ve got a blooming heat rash over 80% of my body. Seriously, red splotches and bumps on my legs, arms, neck, and face. I woke up this morning have way around the world from home in Bursa, I miss people back in the states like a permanent ache, and I’m spending my twenty sixth birthday riding a public bus for 7 hours, but hey I’m in TURKEY, so I can’t really complain!

I was reflecting on turning 26 last night after getting back to the hotel after we went and observed the Whirling Dervish service at a Dervish Lodge.

I feel like I should know everything at 26 but the truth is I don’t. I’m willing to bet money (dollars, euros, lira, whatever) that I don’t know anything.
Maybe it’s time to shake things up, do things I said I’d never do, say things that I want to say, start acting on impulses, and attempt to be the person I wish I was.
Is this a quarter life crisis? Perhaps. Or maybe it’s not a crisis but an awakening. A wake up call to that fact that most people don’t live to be 100 and I might be actually past a quarter of my life and that means I need to start living it in ways that make me happy and feel good. It means that every morning I have a decision: do I want to be happy or do I want to be negative? I need to choose happy. I need to make the conscious choice.
Whether that means making myself happy that day or choosing to do something that will make me happy the next week or working towards happy in years to come. I figure if my goal is happy then I’ll stumble into other good feelings along the way!
So here’s to this year!
Choose Happy.
  

Want to choose happy with me?

shirt: gap, shorts: jcrew factory, shoes: nike, purse: mulberry, bracelet: the ropes maine, watch: kate spade, headband: length of fabric

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